my resolutions

i say my biggest challenge now is that i am aiming for a better kate.  a person who is not judgmental and a person who gives chances to people who err.

in my younger years, i was always too quick to point out other people’s flaws and  weaknesses.  i would easily connect their weaknesses to their personalities and would instantly think less of people who were on the slow side.

i think, looking back, i would like to change a whole chunk of my personality.  to say that i was temperamental would be like saying that it is easy to tame lions.  i was one who let her emotions get the better of her almost all of the time.  i have lost a lot of friends and have burnt a lot of bridges.  i am not writing these down because i am proud of what i was.  no, it is the exact opposite. sometimes late at night, i look back and wish that i could just mend relationships all that easy and just change me into a better person.

although i am tempted to write “i will go on a diet this year” as one of my new year’s resolution, in fact i will not tread that path.

this time around, i want to work on the inner me.

i want to be more patient.

i want to be more helpful.

i want to be constantly aware of the blessings and chances that life and God keep giving my way.

i want to be empathic.

i want to be sympathetic.

i want to be able to laugh at small stuff.

i want to be able to see the good side of all things.

i want to end my being pessimistic.

i want to learn how to pick my battles and not sweat the small stuff.

i want to be less paranoid.

i want go on picnics with my husband on a sunny day, just to savor clear blue skies and to lay on the grass again.

i want to learn how to take it easy.

 

i know that looking at these is like one big avalanche that i am trying to push.  but to know that there is something in me willing for me to take that first step towards change is enough to will my other foot to take that second step.

i have lost a friend earlier last year and it has opened my eyes to all sorts of realities that both make me grateful and terrified.

my heart has so much love and laughter to give and i will no longer keep those things all to myself.  

i am giving my all to the world and to the people i love.

no, i wasn’t busy or anything. i was just too lazy to blog.

so many things have happened but i can’t seem to put myself to blog about them, so let me try now..

after songkran allan and i had to literally drag ourselves out of bed. it was such a crappy feeling but we had to. and isn’t that such a terrible feeling? doing something out of obligation? so it’s been 5 days since we started working again and slowly, things are going back to normal.

i know it doesn’t sound nice of me to be saying how much i hate work. i know there are so many people who have families to feed but haven’t got jobs. i don’t want to sound such an ingrate.

i do love my job, or at least some parts of it. i am a teacher. i love being a teacher. i love spending time with the kids, laughing and playing with them. it’s the admin job i hate. i have to supervise teachers, hire teachers, keep tab of their lesson plans and objectives, check everything in the english department, and what have you. if it were only teaching, there would be no complaints from me, pramis.

anyhoo, allan and i watched…. prepare your eyes…. bituing walang ningning and bukas luluhod ang mga tala sa youtube. grabe, aliw. then we watched ang cute ng ina mo. while these are really entertaining, they are also time consuming. so we’ve stopped for now.

i might be up for a minor [please let it be minor] surgery tomorrow. so please pray for me. my thresh hold for pain is very, very low. this is really bothering me but i have to go through it.

i need all the prayers i can get.

salamat po!

sad sad sad

this breaks my heart into a million tiny pieces.

this makes me feel so blessed to have allan.

love you pangs!

famous eekai (?!)

we finally went to church today. it’s been so long, i am really embarrassed. anyway, the people there were so happy to see us. people knew us, people we have not met before. so that’s a bit scary if you ask me, ok, maybe i am just being paranoid or maybe i’ve been so used to leading a very quiet life i.e me and allan and a few friends who we happen to work with he he.

there were the 2 nuns who were very nice to me. they took an instant liking to moi when we first had the pleasure of meeting at ate sarah’s house. if my memory serves me right, that was before xmas pa when we gathered to talk about the xmas party. i promised them that we would see them in church the following week but with work and my parents’ arrival, it proved to be impossible. ok, yeah impossible is too strong a word because it sounds really bad to say that one thing sounded more important than GOD, so okay i’ll shut up and admit to my mistake.

people asked for our numbers during the small get-together after the mass. it was nice. after church we went to the mall to pay for our car but we were too late and the banks were already closed. i saw another pinay and talked for a bit. not 10 steps after i saw my friends, the ones i went to melbourne with and we did a bit of catching up. then more people asked for my number.

i still do not know why and how i get 100++ views on my friendster this early on. i have my viewing settings on private but i have this little trick that allows me to see the people who view my profile everyday. still there are people, who i think have their setting on private too, that my little trick won’t cover,

bought some bathroom supplies at watson’s and saw another pinay. i swear, i really felt famous ha ha, OA. joke. while i was busy putting stuff into my cart, allan handed me a bunch of notes and asked me to count them. it was missing 1,000 baht. good thing allan likes keeping receipts (which i absolutely loathe kse to me they just tend to pile up and create a mess). we phoned the customer service and were told that we need to wait until tuesday to get our money back.

i can’t seem to keep maye out of my mind, it really worries me. she’s married to my cousin and they have a baby girl. it terrifies me to think of what will happen to them if something terrible should happen to maye. okay, erase erase erase. it just really bothers me that i find myself praying while taking a shower, when i remember it in the middle of the class, several times during the mass and now. please help me pray for her.

i wasn’t so busy this afternoon. i did not have a class from 1-4pm and so i surfed and surfed the net. from one famous website i found people who are looking for partners, lifetime partners. it strikes me odd that these people should look for true love over the net when stories from left, right and center keep popping up about scams and deadly things that come from internet dating, maybe i am just being too skeptical but to me love and internet is just NO MATCH at all.

it rained cats and dogs a few hours ago, good thing we were already home. i do not get scared easily but the intensity of those thunderstorms were enough for me to ask allan not to go too far from me. really scary.

party tomorrow night so that means no blogging on sunday.

i’ve been having random thought on life all week. too bad i wasn’t able to jot them down.

our broadband isn’t working yet. this disappoints allan to no end. we got all the equipment since tuesday and we were told that they have already fixed the problem. we’re waiting for monday when we can torture a poor soul to coming to the house and actually see the whole da*n thing get fixed.

for now i’d have to be content with my usb modem.

it goes on

i’ve prepared myself to do 7 hours of teaching (argh, dreadful) and like a girl scout, had my materials prepared for the whole day. after my 3rd class, i hit a bit of luck and was told that my 4th class has canceled for the whole month of april. if that does not call for a celebration, i don’t know what does. he he.

my back hurts. i’m really quite tired and am looking forward to a bit of rest. my husband, another office mate and i are brewing a good excuse to get us out of the trip our boss arranged for monday afternoon. yeah, monday, the day we move in to the new house. i was not able to say no the first time my boss told me about it, blame it on shock, but i really regret having said yes. so it turns out that the other officemate dreads it too. i don’t want to think about this too much as i don’t want the excuse to sound too rehearsed, he he.

i slept like a baby last night. must be from being so tired. we get off from work earlier as usual so we might do a little bit of shopping this evening.

retail therapy always does wonders to my grouchy mood and my aching back.

good things come my way

la di da, i am so happy.

that one thing i mentioned before, that one thing i was afraid to jinx has passed the crucial stage of not happening and is well on its way to changing my life for the better. i am still unable to divulge anything here but to the few people who know, well, I MADE IT.

it’s flattering when people appreciate the good in you. it makes me realize how truly blessed i am for the skills that i have. and i am really grateful that i have learned how to set my priorities straight early on.

it’s so general, i know but you have got to bear with me. some things have to be kept hush-hush.

monday seems so far away. i can hardly wait to move. good thing all of our stuff are either already in the new house or neatly packed in a box. moving should be easy save for the big things we, eeerrrr, i mean allan has to haul in to the new place.

my schedule in april is unbelievably tight. i’ve got classes as early as 9:30am (ah, there goes an extra hour of sleep ) until 7:30pm. does that make me a workaholic? when times like these come, i just remind myself of how lucky i am to have a stable job. i guess once in a while we all have to look around to appreciate what we have.

but in april, despite the heavy workload, comes songkran! wooohoo. four glorious days of rest. here’s what i plan to do:

1. sleep

2. sleep

3. sleep

and more sleep.

see, there is always a silver lining

“Tomorrow’s Jobs Cannot Be Done with Yesterday’s Skills”

The world is forever moving forward and things change and develop by the second. In order for us to catch on to the future, we must equip ourselves with skills that will match advanced technology in the years to come. What must we do to keep up with the times?

What jobs await for us in the future? It is a given that more people and more industries will rely heavily on computers, from employee identification, data processing, filing encoding and all that people used to do in the workplace. We can also expect things to be done in lesser time and in a quicker manner as people always seem to be in a hurry. There will also be an increase in the number of people operating on machines rather than hiring multiple people to do a certain job.

These future jobs can be a threat to manpower if we lack the proper skills and trainings to compete in an advanced setting. Improvement is the key word.

Continuous learning in your chosen field is always a good start. Not because you have landed on a secure post now means your stability is defined in the future. Remember that the only thing permanent in this life is change. Books, researches, case studies and information from the Internet are ways to help people who do not have the time to go to school or to enroll in special courses. These are effective and economical ways of learning.

Choosing a company that promotes continuous learning by sending its employees to seminars, trainings, social gatherings, and other educational functions is important in keeping you future goals intact. Being in a workplace that does not give chances for its people to grow and learn more is a waste of time.

In the end, it all goes down to you. How much are you willing to invest when it comes to securing your future? Are you content with being at the same desk doing the same things day after day or do you think and act knowing that the world is changing everyday and that new discoveries and new technology are just around the corner?

It lies in you, in what you can do and what you believe you can do to help and cope with the advent of technology.

news

People get their news through newspapers, radio, television and the Internet. The news is more available than it has even been before. News editors are the people who are responsible for what kind of news arrive to us each day. There are many factors that influence the news that reach us daily, though it seems that more bad news are presented to us everyday.

There are various reasons why a piece of news is decided to land on television, radio, newspaper and the Internet. News editors consider interesting stories, financial value and return and their own personal culture or background are only a few of these factors.

Remember that news has to sell. With less interesting news, people are less likely to buy. When it comes to printed news, headlines that show negative issues always sell more. In my opinion, people read about the bad stuff in order to avoid problems that may come their way. Knowing a problem causes one to think of a solution or ways of prevention.

People are less excited nowadays and it takes more to shock us. This may be one of the reasons for the bad news that has been filling our media. It is not called news for nothing, news has to be refreshing, something that we have not heard or seen before. In this age and time, it seems that we have seen it all and this is a problem for news editors. With this problem in mind, they are constantly asking themselves: “What’s new?” and “What’s something that they have not heard before?”

Relativity factor is also important. The news has to strike a relationship with the reader. The world is experiencing poverty, corruption and hunger among other problems. People experience this on a daily basis and this makes it easier for people to relate to the bad news.

Personal choice and cultural background also affect in the news editors’ decision makings, though most of the time this has to be set aside. Each one of us has personal interests that affect our work, are tasted in books and taste in music.

It does seem that more bad news appear everyday and some people may say that being this real is the best way to go. Others might argue and say that  putting more effort into bringing more good news to people is better and is more helpful. Yes, we have all become used to the bad that is happening everywhere but that does not mean we enjoy receiving bad news. Most people take this as a warning, a head’s up of what’s to come and even a way to avoid more problems in the future.

Of course, we all want good news and positive things but the point here is that we have to be realistic. Only spreading the good might be misleading. This may also cause people to be lax in actions and in judgments.

The news is important to us because it connects us to the rest of the world and to reality. News editors have been trained to know and decide on what kind of news should be given us each day whether they be good or bad.