no, i wasn’t busy or anything. i was just too lazy to blog.

so many things have happened but i can’t seem to put myself to blog about them, so let me try now..

after songkran allan and i had to literally drag ourselves out of bed. it was such a crappy feeling but we had to. and isn’t that such a terrible feeling? doing something out of obligation? so it’s been 5 days since we started working again and slowly, things are going back to normal.

i know it doesn’t sound nice of me to be saying how much i hate work. i know there are so many people who have families to feed but haven’t got jobs. i don’t want to sound such an ingrate.

i do love my job, or at least some parts of it. i am a teacher. i love being a teacher. i love spending time with the kids, laughing and playing with them. it’s the admin job i hate. i have to supervise teachers, hire teachers, keep tab of their lesson plans and objectives, check everything in the english department, and what have you. if it were only teaching, there would be no complaints from me, pramis.

anyhoo, allan and i watched…. prepare your eyes…. bituing walang ningning and bukas luluhod ang mga tala sa youtube. grabe, aliw. then we watched ang cute ng ina mo. while these are really entertaining, they are also time consuming. so we’ve stopped for now.

i might be up for a minor [please let it be minor] surgery tomorrow. so please pray for me. my thresh hold for pain is very, very low. this is really bothering me but i have to go through it.

i need all the prayers i can get.

salamat po!

don’t

don’t be fooled by my smiles for they don’t always mean happiness

don’t be fooled by my laughter for it doesn’t always mean joy

don’t be fooled by my silence for it doesn’t always mean peace

don’t be fooled by my nods for they don’t always mean yes

don’t be fooled by my stares for they don’t always mean admiration

don’t be fooled by my presence for it doesn’t assure you of my stay

don’t be fooled by my heart for it also knows how to get tired…..

for a dear friend

please include my friend, maye, in your prayers.

she is in a critical condition.  she was rushed to the hospital earlier today, water was found in her heart and she may be up for an operation.

maye, you are in my prayers.

memories

i’ll be home early november and will be staying for at least two months.  i’ve ben dropping hints at the office and can only hope that my boss will be okay with this.

once i get some free time in pinas, i think i am going to try my hand at writing a novel.  i know it’s a lot of work and two months will not cover half the book but i’ll give it a go anyway.  well, that or i might be looking for call centers that will accommodate me for 2 months.

i got to chat with a high school friend and she told me that she and her bf of 8 yrs (not sure of the figure, i was too shocked to notice) called it quits 2 weeks ago.  she had been thinking of ending the relationship a long time ago but she was always stopped by what they both shared.  i guess time came when she no longer thought that those moments mattered.  she’s been waiting for him to propose for the longest time,  she’s aired out her sentiments but those were always met with answers that  were sugar-coated but plainly meant NO.

so, it finally hit her and now she’s moving on.  that’s the way to go, g!

this really makes you realize that everything and everyone is dispensable.  i know that’s sad but what’s making you feel loved and happy now could be just mere memories in the future.  i know that makes me sound cynical but think of me revealing my worst fears.

i always fear that memories would elude me one day and all that had been happy and all who were loved could just disappear.

now, that’s one scary thought…

it goes on

i’ve prepared myself to do 7 hours of teaching (argh, dreadful) and like a girl scout, had my materials prepared for the whole day. after my 3rd class, i hit a bit of luck and was told that my 4th class has canceled for the whole month of april. if that does not call for a celebration, i don’t know what does. he he.

my back hurts. i’m really quite tired and am looking forward to a bit of rest. my husband, another office mate and i are brewing a good excuse to get us out of the trip our boss arranged for monday afternoon. yeah, monday, the day we move in to the new house. i was not able to say no the first time my boss told me about it, blame it on shock, but i really regret having said yes. so it turns out that the other officemate dreads it too. i don’t want to think about this too much as i don’t want the excuse to sound too rehearsed, he he.

i slept like a baby last night. must be from being so tired. we get off from work earlier as usual so we might do a little bit of shopping this evening.

retail therapy always does wonders to my grouchy mood and my aching back.

classic me

picture this: i signed up for wordpress a few hours ago. posted, looked around, and posting again.

okay, i confess. i need help. it’s either i am a complete idiot or this whole uploading your avatar is just taking time to load. bets are all on the former. i’m afraid i am unable to rest until this teeny-tiny thing is resolved. but at this hour i doubt if anyone is still up to help me.

i can be so OC sometimes.