of kate and life

i recieved an email informing me of a co-teacher’s passing away. he was on his motorbike when he got hit by a truck.

it really shocked me and then that lead me to look for his posts at a famous forum for teachers in thailand. he had the most beautiful and the funniest things to say. but one post really touched my heart. he talked about the most beautiful moments in his life and then asked the other posters to comment.

that got me thinking about my life and what i consider precious moments.

so lest i forget i will write them here:

1. when i was six and was about to sleep i felt my mom give me a kiss on the cheeks. that made me realize that she loved me.

2. my father has given me millions of reasons to be grateful to have him that it is almost too difficult for me to pick one. but i remember going to the market with him and asking him to buy some things for me. he would not buy them at first be he always bought them at the end.

3. up until i was in 4th year high school, i would knock on my parent’s door and ask my father to wait for me outside the bathroom whenever i had to pee or poop after midnight. i would talk to him and get annoyed if he was just standing there and not say anything.

4. my papa would give me foot massage and back rub every time i would make lambing to him. one time i asked him to give me a foot massage and he refused. i was not used to being said no to so i told him: sige ka pag bukas nagising ka at patay na ako sasabihin mo sa sarili mo, sana pala hinilot ko na lang ang anak ko. that always worked wonders and he would always end up giving me what i wanted. a few weeks after that, he got smart and told me that he was really tired and if he died tomorrow i would feel sorry and tell myself na sana hindi ko na lang pinag masahe si papa. it didn’t work for him, though haha.

5. when allan and i eloped, my father looked for us in uste. he slept in the gazebo looking for me. until now pag naalala ko yun, it breaks my heart. my papa loves me dearly.

6. a very precious moment was when i heard that my father did not die from the freak accident he was involved in 1998. not many people know this but the night after his accident, i stayed at home, alone in our c5 house. i was on my knees shouting and begging GOD to save my father and if someone must die, to let it be me. i did not ask for anything else other than for God to spare my father his life.

7. during my grade 6 graduation, my father was in the hospital (we was hit by a motorcycle). after the graduation song we were asked to approach our parents and kiss them. that was the only kiss i gave my mom or her to me after that kiss when i was only 6 years old.

8. my brothers and me playing hide and seek.

9. my kuya arnel giving me a sloppy kiss when i was just 5. i hated it ha ha.

10. my kuya jayson taking care of me when papa was hit by a motorcycle and we were the only ones left in the house.

11. my kuya jayson and i hugging when i picked him up at Bangkok Airport.

12. The first time i ever laid eyes on Stephanie, it was instant love.

13. Taking care of Kirk, he’s not just a cousin to me, he’s more like my youngest brother.

14. memories of my lolo oneng and how i felt that i have always been his favorite apo

15. the day i realized that i truly loved allan (aug 27 1995)

16. watching sunsets with him sa airbase

17. when we eloped— thrice!

18. when he asked me to take him back after we broke up

19. when he chose me above all the other women naks

20. when he told me how he prayed na sana sa halip na ako ang mahirapan eh sya na lang

21. when he came to thailand to be with me.  i can never forget the smile on his face, like he won a million bucks

22. when we went to the beach, one late night after my first arrival from thailand

23. the times when we’d go to the park near emporium and just watch other people pass by.  he’d be sitting on a bench tapos ako nakahiga sa lap nya.

24. allan whispering i love you while he thought i was asleep

25. those days when we had to sneak around and put letters under flower pots and meet at 2am just to have time to talk

26. those days when he would sneak out of the house just to see me

27. his first valentine card for me

28. when he surprised me with a card and chocs this Vday

29. nung hinatid ko sya sa bus then suddenly deciding na sama na lang ako. he really cried.

30. our first “forever and after”

i know there are still a lot that i missed but for now, these will do.